We’ve been talking about and planning a trip to Disney World with my family for a few months.  We were all getting ready to start making our reservations and start making official plans.  And now some people are not able to go.  I know everyone really wanted to go.  And I know everyone is disappointed it’s not going to happen.  Since it was supposed to be an entire family trip we aren’t going to go without everyone.  But, I feel so disappointed and down about the whole thing.

Lately I’ve really been struggling with feeling extremely anxious and depressed.  Planning this trip was sort of helping me to keep those feelings in check.  It kept me distracted and gave me something to look forward to.  And it’s hard to describe- I know my life is good.  Everyone is healthy and we have enough money to pay our bills.  But I worry constantly and feel so anxious all of the time.  So this trip was something I really feel like I needed- something to keep my mind busy and to keep me from falling further into this awful pit of anxiety and depression.

Now it’s not happening and I feel terrible.