So the other day George got a notice that his new support that he has to pay is behind.  It’s not behind because he didn’t pay- it’s behind because it took the judge like 3 months to make a decision and he back dated it to the original date.  So, since Crazy is such a thoughtful person- she said she would take care of it so that he doesn’t have to pay that back payments.  And while I do really appreciate that- I wonder if she realizes that she is the reason he is paying more than he can afford to pay.  We have to take the money out of our savings account to pay the weekly payments.  So, when that money runs out then George will not have the money to pay.

Crazy wants to make herself out to be the good guy, like she is doing George some huge favor.  The favor would have been for her to not be an idiot in the first place and ruin the good relationships we had between us.  I just can’t stand her right now.

I’m sure this is a common thing for a mom to feel.  I hope it is.  I hope I’m not really a failure.  But lately I’ve been feeling like I just don’t know how to handle my toddler.  She wants her way all the time and will scream until I am sure she is about to pass out.  I know it’s normal for a toddler to be testing her limits and trying to figure out how the world works.  Some days I feel like I just don’t have enough patience and I just want to lock myself in the bathroom and never come out.  Some days I just don’t want to fight with Peanut over every teeny tiny thing that comes up during the day.  Some days I want to join her and just scream and scream until I feel all better.  Of course, I can’t do those things and I would never actually do them, but I want to.  I just want to feel like I’m the one who is in charge.

I am feeling so down and sad these days.  I just can’t seem to get out of this funk that I am in.  I have been thinking about how we were planning a trip to Disney World for January, since the dates of our planned trip would have been about a month and a half a way.  If the trip hadn’t been canceled I would be really looking forward to it.  Instead I am feeling depressed about how we are not going.

So, today I was checking out maybe taking a vacation to Orlando, FL.  Right now you can get discounted tickets to Mickey’s Very Merry Christmas Party.  We have never been to Disney at Christmas time but I am sure it is purely magical to be there with all of the beautiful decorations.  It is held during November and December on certain nights.  I can only imagine that this would be the perfect escape for me right now.

If you have ever been to Disney World then you know it is magical at any time of the year- the look on your child’s face will be just amazing.  I can only imagine what it will be like at Christmas time!