I posted not to long ago about how I wanted to talk to someone I saw the other day at church who I think I know from several years ago.  But, I didn’t talk to her because I knew if I did my face would turn all red.  I have been thinking about how much of an effect this has on my life.  It’s huge.  I avoid a lot of things because I know my face will turn red.  There have been times I wanted to go somewhere and be a part of a mommy group with Peanut, but I knew my face would turn all red when people talk to me.  When I see someone I know out in public (the mall, the grocery store) I turn all red.  When someone talks to me, I turn all red.  Why in the world do I do it?  I am not embarrassed.  It doesn’t make any sense.  So often I have things I want to say in a group or people I would love to talk to.  But I hold back and I don’t do it.  I wish there was some sort of pill I could take to make this go away.  I hate it.