I think I may have just had a panic attack.  I have no idea what one feels like but from what I have read I am wondering if that is what I just experienced.  I was reading to Peanut… she is very sick right now with a terrible cough.  She has asthma, so whenever she gets a cough she has a hard time breathing and it’s very scary.  So that is what has been going on this week.  So on top of my usualy worries and anxiety I am worried about how sick she is.

Anyways, I was reading to her thinking about how I just can’t have her being sick like this anymore this year.  So, I was thinking about the various activities we go to- story times, play groups, church, etc.  And I started thinking about how I want to just keep Peanut at home until spring.  Then I started thinking about how sad and lonely I already feel and the thought of never leaving the house made me start to cry.  Then I felt like there was a crushing pressure and pain in my chest and I couldn’t catch breath.  I was shaking and crying.

So, I am wondering if it could have been a panic attack???