I have been feeling so lonely lately.  I have a great husband and a wonderful daughter who are in the house with me all day long.  And yet I feel lonely.  It doesn’t make much sense to me.  But sometimes I feel so lonely that it physically hurts.  I think what I am longing for is a female friend.  I don’t have any friends, not one single friend.  It’s not just that I don’t have a best friend or someone I’m really close to- I really do not have any friends at all.  Last week when I was taking Peanut to get her picture taken I was actually excited that I was going to get to talk to the photographer.  How sad is that.

When I was growing up I remember my mom having a lot of friends.  We spent time with her friends and their kids and it was a lot of fun.  I remember my mom laughing with her friends and having a blast together.  And I would be busy playing with the friends kids having a blast myself.  I want that now.  I want a close friend like the ones I remember my mom having.  I want friends for Peanut.

We have joined some mommy groups and people are nice.  But so far I don’t have anyone I would call a friend.  And I am incredibly lonely.  Sometimes when I am cleaning my house I wonder what the point is.  No one, and I mean no one, ever comes over.  I just feel an empty, achy, lonely feeling.  And it hurts.