Once upon a time I woke up on a Friday morning and George told me he had a surprise for me.  He told me to pack up my suitcase for a weekend away.  He told me to bring something really nice to wear for a special dinner.  I was thrilled!!  I hurriedly packed up my suitcase and brought my little black dress for our special dinner.  We got in the car and drove away for a romantic weekend. 

When we arrived at our little bed and breakfast we would be spending the weekend at, there were Valentine’s Day flowers from ProFlowers waiting for me.  Since I very rarely get flowers I was so excited so have these beautiful flowers waiting for me.  We spent some time relaxing and enjoying the fire in our fireplace before getting dressed for dinner.  I put on my little black dress and George got dressed up in his tux and off we went.

We had a nice romantic candle lit dinner with beautiful music playing quietly in the background.  We enjoyed our delicious food before heading back to our room for the night.  Once there I enjoyed my flowers some more and then we had a nice soak in our whirlpool tub.  It was the perfect weekend and the best Valentine’s Day ever.

Then I woke up and realized I’d been dreaming.

About 5 1/2 years ago George came home from a business meeting and told me his boss had offered him a better position.  Not necessarily a promotion but a position in a better location that would bring him bigger bonuses and the possibility of a great promotion.  The catch?  We’d have to move 3 hours away from our friends and families.

Immediately I started thinking of a nicer home and more things.  We had a nice house and plenty of things… but of course I wanted more.  I didn’t think about how we were moving 3 hours away from not only our extended families but also Miss B.  I just wanted to move.  George felt leery about it, he didn’t think it was the best thing to do.  For one thing there was Miss B- the main reason we never should have went.  Another thing- George and his boss didn’t get along all that great.  And moving would mean living in the same town as his boss and seeing him a lot more.

We moved because I wanted to.  Now I regret it. 

BUT, if we had never moved I don’t know if we would have Peanut.  We had to see specialists and go through infertility treatments to get pregnant.  The place we live in has better hospitals and doctors and specialists.  So, on the other hand- I don’t regret moving.  Now I’m just ready to pick up and move back.

When I was born I was running a slight fever.  At least that is what I have been told.  And apparently when this happens it can mess up your permanent teeth.  The color of them, that is.  I didn’t even notice it or have it bother me until I got a little older.  Probably in upper elementary school.  My teeth always looked like they had little streaks on them.  Even though I obsessively brushed (and still do) my teeth always looked like I needed to brush.  It was embarrassing and it bothered me as I got older.

After I had braces my parents talked to the dentist about having my teeth whitened so that I wouldn’t feel so self conscious about it.  But they wouldn’t do it for me.  I don’t remember the reason but I remember being very disappointed.

I was never teased about it.  It was probably more noticeable to me than to anyone else- like most things we are self conscious about.  But I always wished I had Celebrity Sexy White teeth.  Especially since I take very good care of my teeth.  It doesn’t really bother me anymore although I would still like to have nice bright, white teeth.

Tonight while I was cooking dinner all of a sudden I saw these white cloudy flashes in my eyes.  I was trying to check facebook while I waited for dinner to finish and the spots I was seeing were so bad that I couldn’t even read my screen.  It scared me a bit because I have been coughing so much I started to think I had somehow damaged my eyes with coughing so hard.  After about 20 minutes or so they started to fade.  I looked it up on the internet and found what I am describing is called floaters.  I guess it’s not all that unusual but it was pretty weird for me.  I immediately started thinking that something was wrong and I don’t have any insurance so I about had myself in a panic.