I know it’s not something that any of like to think or talk about but lately I’ve been thinking about what would happen to my family if I were to die.

About a week ago some friends of one of my cousins were in a terrible accident.  Three of the family members were killed and only the father survived.  This family was the same age as my family.  And it is just heart breaking.  I also found out a week or so ago about a guy I went to high school with who died of leukemia.  Obviously he was the same age as me.

When things like that happen it usually makes us stop and think about how precious life is how quickly it can be gone.  It’s hard to think about things like mortgage insurance and life insurance but they are necessary things to get taken care of.

We don’t have any mortgage protection insurance and if something happened to me, I know George needs my income to pay all of our bills, so I don’t now what he would do.  And as much as I hate the thought of leaving my family too soon I also hate the idea of leaving them without taking care of those things first.  There is also mortgage disability insurance to think about in case of a serious disability.

So much to think about and too much sadness in my mind these days.  But it needs to be taken care of.

A while ago I posted on a forum that I like to talk in about how I want to have another baby.  I’ve had the baby ache for several months but since we do not have any health insurance having a baby right now doesn’t seem like a wise thing to do.

So I was venting to the other moms about how I want a baby but we have to wait for now.  Well another mom came on and said her husband sells health insurance and might be able to help us out.  Now I’m not sure if he really will be able to help us because of the state we live in (we’re usually excluded).  But for now I’m feeling a little bit of hope that this could possibly work out.

If you have been by my blog lately then you know I’ve been talking about Valentine’s Day quite a bit.  I’m hoping that this year will be a really fun and special Valentine’s Day for George and I.  It seems like things have been really stressful lately and I think it would be really good for us and our marriage to have a nice little weekend getaway to celebrate Valentine’s Day all weekend long.

I never know what to buy for George for Valentine’s Day so I’ve already started looking at some Valentines Day Gift ideas.  So I’ve been checking the Internet for ideas such as apparel and chocolates.  There are also tons of flowers and jewelry out there- but that is more something I would like rather than George.  If we do get to take a nice little weekend getaway I think I’d like to surprise George by buying some cute little outfit to wear.  I never do stuff like that even though I know he likes it.  And of course I’d have to get him some chocolates too.

Whatever we end up doing I know I want this year to be really special.  It’s been a while since we have done anything really romantic, so I hope this year will be our best yet!

I thought Peanut was finally getting healthy.  Nope.

I had to take Peanut back to the doctor this morning because she had a rash on her neck. They said it’s a virus and part of the cold that she is getting. So, she is getting sick again. She is a little stuffed up and was coughing last night and this morning again too. The doctor said her lungs sounded great but of course I’m worried that it will turn into pneumonia again.

This is so frustrating.